A Grotesque Way To Be, You & Me

I suppose all i can say is free is not really free. Free speech Isnt really free. Words are engraved upon the stone preaching about equality. Equality is nothing more than a simple illusion placed upon things. Im not equal to you nor you to me. Celebrities are not equal to regular society. They're special. Law affects them in a totally different way then it does to you or I. That is just the way things are and how oh so unfortunate...my pleasures are not equal to yours. Ironically the ignorant people are whinging about the preposterous amount of ignorants their around when all they need to do is take a gander into some reflective surface of a certain kind. Take a peek into the looking glass.
It seems to them that illicit drug use is a creation of illusions to help the person partaking in the illicit drug use create a so-called "fantasy" world. The latter opinion would be incorrect. To me it is all about the escape. What is possibly wrong with an escape. Naturally i think responsibility for ones self is a must when participating in escapes. What is the problem with stepping away from the goddamn norm. A little fun. Something different. Some of us animals need to mature to a better point of understanding. But it wont happen. Religion will still flourish amongst the masses. People wont think and do for themselves. So i'll keep my POV and they'll keep theirs untill,we can only hope, their undocile minds open a biology book instead of a bible...We all have our set time so live for yourself and no one else, make it all enjoyable as possible for yourself. Live beauteous if you must. Whatever is most pleasing to your conscience...

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Media Pretty Boys

The station known as Disney is overloaded with them. These teen boys, who girls lift their shirts up to, have been made so-called gods amongst the women across America and possibly a lot of males as well. The screen you look at every day is the master of all demise. The controller. The media Pretty Boys would be nowhere without a cathode ray tube.

Why is it these boys are made to be like kings. Since they are on the screen they've been thrown into a society that's made to cling. Whatever they have on (brand,style,etc), their hairstyle, or whatever must be copied. Since they do it, others feel "well they're hip, hot, i want to be the same". To the status quo the media is apparently "whats right". If it says to look like so and so, they'll look like so and so. To me it's utterly atrocious that these Disney, etc figures are boosted to such heights. They have no talent what so-ever. The only thing that got them to their position is their quote unquote handsome looks.
The Jonas Bitches: a group of shit, pretty boy teen musicians (which i hate to call them) who, which is a possible fact, dont write their own music and use lyrics from "teen" movies, with all their, if they have any, original lyrics based off of plot's from the "teen" movies with the lyrics adhering to what is called the "teenager's mind" which is why they orgasm at the sound of their shit music. Well of course they dont think its fecal matter because they feel that their lyrics are real, that the bothers have been through "real" struggles and whoever is listening to it makes themselves relate to such garbage (hence the reason for the upswell of Jonas Bullshit).
They,the status quo, will believe it. Those who listen buy (lunch boxes, keychains,tshirts,cups,and who the hell knows what else.
Disney makes billions from all this hehaw.
But back to the no talent topic of this shindig. Their pretty boy looks have got them this stardom and the "big bosses" of the media corperation that owns disney and disneys bosses themselves know these faces, these angel,smooth,pretty schoolboy faces are oh so camera friendly. So they get thrown in front of a camera and told to "act". The funny thing with this little scene is that every damned one of them have no, and i mean this, no acting ability whatsoever. They might as well be holding the scripts right up to their camera friendly snouts. But the viewers of these disney shows (also included in these are the hanana montana episodes) sit their, transfixed televisually to their screen somehow not noticing the horrible acting taking place.

The girls: regular society' sgirls: words ive heard describing the media pretty boys include atrocities such as "gorgeous, brilliant, sexy, yummy, that would be delicious, steamy (nojoke) and this can go on for a while. The girls have seen them and all for the media boys' looks will speak such things. Also, and im almost positive on this, that most if not all of the girls extremly attached like a leech to the screens males would be more than willing to, if they saw one of the boys in public or anywhere, to get as naked as possible and be ready to mate with him all through the night...and possibly through the next

Dark-Colored Matter

The prisoner lays flat on his back, his chest is slightly caved in due to the strength of the straps tightened to his stomach. The officer of the main law stands with eager eyes. Can't wait for the passing im sure. The deserver shakes due to the immense white stress. His psychosis could be compared to A.M static.

Pale death now sits on the "examination" table. Officers of the main law stand round. What's the difference here honestly? The one who deserves to be put to death. Why? Did he kill someone? The officers of the main law when performing such an action, what makes them any different from the person their injecting, electrocuting, shooting, or hanging? Have they not just committed a murder themselves? The so-called deserver of the punishment wouldn't be dead unless the upholders of law didnt take his life so when that upholder goes where ever he goes after his shift i wonder if he realizes or even imagines himself a murderer.

Subject A murders old lady walking down street, takes her life...(and currency)
Subject A is caught and subjected to death row.
Seven years pass as Subject A waits for his impending fate.
Time comes...
Upholder B escorts Sub.A to death room.
Upholder B executes Subject A at scheduled time.
Executes- takes Sub. A's life
Not to say Sub.A didnt deserve such an act of oppresion,
but what makes Upholder B different from Sub. A when it comes to the
idea of taking anothers life ?

Jummy Jimmy.............Sausages ?

Irritation is involved in my 5th and 6th every day. Daniels is one of the most despicable, ostentatious, appalling, degrading, immature, worthless persons i have ever come into contact with. I honestly could write a F------ (expletive) novel about his class, his ways, his downgrading of other students, his ways of "Non" teaching. But ill just keep it to today. He was so pissed about our Workkeys test scores (Workkeys is this bullshit test we are forced to take if we have a vocational class, i believe) (and i am not doing a thing with computers after Highshool, im juts trying to graduate.) But he said he was going to make it up to us if we did bad on those tests. Partly because i know he wanted us to have better scores, all for his pretentious fat ass to look good for everyone else. Honestly, i guessed on the test and didnt do good at all. Why? Beause it was dumb and why should i make Him look good when he doesnt teach a damn, literraly, a damn thing. Doesn't it make the state look good as well? I really dont care about that either, my useless/worthless score on that test is not going to bring this state and or country to its knees. So we come in there today and he started downgrading us, as usual, for being so (in his words) damn stupid. I was the first one he targeted. Since i bring a book im reading at the time in that class everyday he was basally just on me for being "stupid" in the reading part of the test and that i failed it and i should just throw it in the trash (my book) because i cant bring it in there anymore and saying that we cant read and all that jazz. Ok first off that man cannot even put together a proper sentence. Second i know his reading skills are "mierd" as well. Well rather than using the French words ill just say it his reading skills are quote Shit unquote. How dare he say i cant read. Id like to see him pick up a book by David Foster Wallace or Fyodor Dostoevsky then we shall see who can read. So to make a long story way way short he made us (the ones who didnt pass the worthless test, only like 3 out of 7 of us passed it) the "failures" take a huge book (on Networking, the class is Servers) we never never use and do his usual busy work of summarizing some chapters. So yea im pissed at him as usual and now its just increased because this little "scene" he's trying to play out may last the rest of my year here. But whatever
Studder Budder Jimmy. I dont need your class to graduate so have fun being a prick............OUT

A Story of the Liars and Thieves

Liars and thieves...We are all liars and all thieves. We have all stolen. We have all deceived. Yes its a travesty that that's the way it is but that's how it goes. Asking someones opinion on liars and thieves is just about the same as asking someone their opinion on urination and excrementing. But we'll talk about the "chronic" thieves and liars. The constants. Liars who lie constantly are building up a big complex web of complexity. They may believe they have gotten out of it but it is only just the beginning (remember we're talking of chronic liars). When the liar is lying he believes he is lying to the person the lie is directed at but the truth about the lie is that the chronic liar is not only lying to the receiver but also lying to his or herself. They have developed a system where they don't have to be honest with anyone nor themselves. The constant liar is not real. He is not real with himself.

The chronic thief is one dirty piece of life. Now this all depends on what the items being lifted are. Im going to go with uhm say someones "personal" items i.e. money ipod cd's book etc.

The scenario goes as follows: Skankbaby A walks into his regular gym class he has had all year.
SkankbabyA has been watching this one girls music listening device for quite some time now and views it as this "must" have piece of technology he must have because he cant have it so now he feels compelled to steal anothers. So Girl B sits and listens(to her music device). Skankbaby A, still watching intently behind some trashy twins of his. Girl B finally, to Skankbaby A's great relief, waltzes on back to the ladies locker room area. Girl B was not even remotely involved in a thought about some trash of a person stealing her property, hers, so she left her music listening device along with some of her other items of personal property i.e. bookbag, purse (no money in there) (Skankbaby A would know), other clothes. Skankbaby A's eyes lit with a tainted bright light of joy. Skankbaby A managed to weasel his way with the crowd of trashy twins in front of the items and grab the device. It was never seen again. Home. Skankbaby A sits and looks at his prize thinking that what he did, in his mind, was so-called "cool" and "badass", saying things reminiscent of "yea, im so hard" "don't fuc* with me alright" (all this being said into his ratty looking bathroom mirror in his ratty looking bathroom to himself. Poor Skankbaby A doesn't realize how atrocious he is and the act he just committed was. That he has to lower himself even lower than his social status is and rob someone of their music. To wake up in the morning and think about plundering. Stealing from someone something that was that someones, not the one that stole it. Home. Girl B sits with head in hands. Something strange is in the air. She picks her face up ever so gently to look at her enraged, irate Father Figure in her face. Supposed Father Figure is horribly upset that his daughters music device was now missing and she, somehow, had no idea where it resided and this was the 3rd one she has somehow messed up (the 1st 2, music devices, Girl B broke). Girl B is now terribly upset with grief with tears streaming down her face because, honestly, she really doesnt know what happenned to it. It was there. It was gone. Just like that. Skankbaby A has caused more damage than his skankbaby mind will ever comprehend.

He...The Problem

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Somehow his head has become unhinged. Maybe it happened when he was a child. Maybe when he was a teenager. He couldn't quite figure it out. He was a male with a body aged about 18 years. At the moment, in some present day and time, he is sitting...bathed in white light. The kind of white light you see overhead in shit DMV's or in a school or a hospital or almost anywhere. After spending a total of about 30 odd minutes in this light, one can feel quite uneasy, somewhat blinded; he was feeling those very symptoms at the very moment of happening. He knows that at the end of this very long day of useless teachings being drastically thrown on him against, honestly, his own will that he and his eyes will be, honestly, strung out from the light. After 8 or so hours in this the eyes have strained for hours upon more hours in it so that coming outside of the institution, the eyes truly feel heavy after all the work they've been doing in a day of snow blindness. He struggles his ass home to nothingness. In his mind Nothingness is what it all really is to him; thats what he possess...Nothing. He finds it easy to mozie around the house but the hardest thing to try and find something to do, because all he wants to do is mozie. He lives with his father aged about 64 years. His mother? He can't remember. Was she worth the remembrance? Not to He...

An Obligation To Smell The Smell Of Another

We all have our own obligations. One is an obligation to your body. A want and need type scenario. Is it a wanting to urinate or a need to urinate? Yes we need to relieve ourselves of useless fluid. Yes we want to relieve ourselves of the useless fluid. But its more of a challenge to handle a stifling bathroom in some area of public access. That urge, all that pressure builds up in your bladder and you know where you must go. Now i am going to use my high school watering hole as a example... When you come around this wall bathed in this dull stained blue and enter into the realm of waste; waste from a shit-ton of animals, the smell immediately penetrates your nares, and my first thought is "damn, Im smelling someones piss, it's soaking my skin, my hair, my clothes." Its so pungent and painful to stand in but one must put up with to relieve yourself. So the very suffocating type odor makes it hard to breath but you press on and make it to a urinal or stall, (the stalls here are always either clogged up with piss and toilet paper, fecal matter and toilet paper, and/or a combination of both), and you let go, wanting to get out of this horrid place as quick as you an as to relieve your whole body from the stench that fills a small enclosed room where numerous upon numerous upon numerous animals come to eliminate pressure...

It's All We Have...

A Time In A Fascist School: Deprived Of All Things Necessary

Spring Valley High, oh what a place. I am going to make this story short, as short as i can. Let's start off by saying that the Valley is, in mine and quite a few others, the worst school I and or We have ever witnessed. We the students are so mentally broken down to nothing.

Bo. The retarded, child molesting, mongoloidish, immature, ignorant, swine who lives with his grandmother or mother (either one is just as pitiful), is the "supposed" security watchdog at the school. A man with an almost completely bald head ( well why give him credit? it is bald...completely) ,who actually looks mentally unfit to be around students, wears knee high socks with shorts in the summer, is the enforcer man of this institution and let me say, what a joke. There are so many things i could bitch about with this guy but i am going to limit myself. In our commons area we have these long tables set in about 8 or 9 rows. On the left side of the commons sits my area. The area of the Holy Round Tables. These tables have decreased in number over the past month with skanks, and stupid immature douchebag guys infiltrating my space. The question is, what in the hell happened to the other tables? The genius of a man Bo has decided to block off an area of the commons an area by the windows, the darker area where the goth kids and skank kids hung out by the window. There is two sections to that and instead of letting more kids actually sit down at lunch and not on the shitfloor he decides to block those areas of with the tables; 3 tables on one side and on the other 4 tables completely blocking access with 2 tables behind those, i guess for extra protection. Oh how i would love to smash this dudes face in. This doing is one of the most stupid acts acted out by a so called staff member of the highschool. Why in the hell do you have to use lunch tables to block an area which has no need and i mean no need to be blocked off? There is no clear answer, because it is an ignorant and unnecessary action acted out by a hideous beast. The administration even lets this molester accomplish such acts and to me that makes them as dumb and ridiculous as the hideous beast himself. Wouldn't it seem more proper if one was going to block something off to use something other than the lunch tables some students sit at? Of course it would but I and we attend Spring Valley High, a stupid and somewhat fascist school institution where the dictators are nothing but dumbasses or swine or simply asses; what have you... more is possible to follow...

Weekends That Rot Away With All The Other Days

My weekends usually consist of the same "mierd". They consist of nothing, but i feel oh so like Im doing something of some sort. In reality Im sitting around. But also in that reality Im doing things that I find necessary, that i find i need to do. So whether they are important or not in your eyes I am not the one to care. My weekend is just another day...

a Meaningless Sphere: In and On a Certain Slide of Time

So we're here to live, correct? Yes, i suppose. We came out of nothing and became something apparently; but what is the meaning of it all? Answer: there's not one. We live for nothing then we die that's how it goes. Let me put it this way, the things we do on this planet while we are alive doesn't amount up to "mierd" , because when you die, your gone, that's it. Everything you have supposedly just accomplished is now gone because you are dead. This society we live in today is filled with corrupt, vile, and sickening acts. Sad people addicted to their materialistic views and their hypnotizing television with advertisements, propaganda (to conform you to the system, "status quo"), the televangelists to suck you in with their blind faith which makes their pockets bigger and yours a little more empty all for your so called "financial anointing", all just make my stomach turn. Almost pushing for someone to take part in an early release, also known as a suicide. A way to just escape from this meaningless world to our ultimate fate is another way to define suicide. Death is where we will all end up being anyways, so thats the route some choose. I feel more like, yes we live in a meaningless world so we should try and make the beautiful things we experience in our meaningless lives some what meaningful. We should all just muscle it out until out bodies just can't take it anymore. I mean i guess thats all we can do. What else can we do, beside go with the machine. Some plunge way deeper in the muck than others and some are on the outskirts of the machine just dying to break free...

Dwelling on an Unnecessary Complaint That's Nothing of Importance

About a week ago I heard in my school that a WV lawmaker wants to ban the line of dolls this world has come to know as Barbie. Now of course my reaction to this was pretty much along the lines of, What a jackass, what a ridiculous thought. Shouldn't this swine have better things to be involved in and not Barbie Dolls?

The lawmakers position on the doll was that it places too much emphasis on physical beauty. It makes a child want to "look" exactly like that, and what that is is apparently a flirtacious, little tease, young adult. He also said another reason he wanted this legislation to go through was, once again, "the doll gives too much emphasis on if your beautiful, you don't have to be smart". This man's name is Jeff Eldridge.

Ok. First and foremost let's get this straight Jeff. The "Item" that your complaining about is a TOY; that's all that it is, a child play thing. This doll does NOT place all that emphasis on children because, once again, It is a toy; its there for child entertainment not to try to make little girls, hopefully not boys, into slutty "playboyish" type figures. I dont think thats what the makers of the doll had in mind when they created Ms. Barbie. Also I heard other people on this news show the other day (channel 27, Headline News, to be exact) and they were bitching about for Barbie's 50th anniversary on the doll they placed a pink, sparkley looking butterfly tattoo about the size of a pinhead and they were moaning and wailing about that. They were saying that the tattoo on the doll, once again, placed too much emphasis on adulthood, blah, blah, blah. Holy Hell. The doll is 50. Let her finally get a tattoo for christ's sake. Although in reality the makers thought it would be a "cute" addition to the doll and that is all.

But back to you Jeff. The ones who are placing too much emphasis on the doll is you. You are the ones, because the doll can't possibly do it. It is an Inanimate Object Jeff. It's not real. You people are the ones who think this doll gives off all of these things, not the kids. The kids are just out to play with the doll . Jeff you said the doll "gives too much emphasis on if your beautiful, you don't have to be smart". Who said that? You did Jeff, you said that not the damn doll. Kids are going to play, learn, then grow up, thats life, get used to it. Your all saying "the dolls are too dirty and let the kids be kids". Well you taking away their toys are really letting them be kids. A child plays with the doll. A child gets entertainment from the doll. A child does not sit around with Barbies, etc, talking to them about getting implants on their breasts, sexual encounters and partying. The adults think that. The adults think that and therefor they think that's what the doll is resembling, implying, and trying to emphasize.

So Jeff (and anyone else who is complaining), you need to quit complaining about dolls and what not and get to work on something of importance, examples: economy, health care, the state of WV and it's roads, economy, etc, etc, etc... Get a Life Mr.Eldridge.

A Cause For Concern On Both Sides Of The Main Political Spectrum.

Worthless right-wing conservatives, throwing out complaints and screaming about problems and asking questions but not giving any answers to the questions or problems, and liberal democrats, are the main parties in the public eye ( MEDIA). President Obama is now in the "Black House" which is great, I dig that, but he came into a hell of alot of problems. These problems are now being attended to by the President, but every time you turn on the news there is some republican, fat Rush Limbaugh, old, dead, shunned Senator McCain, etc, etc, whining and moaning about how the new Democrat administration is handling America's current problems and how their all wrong. Well my first thought is, Shut up, you all lost, your out of the White House, let the man (Obama and team) try, give their ideas a chance, if they fail then whine. But. As i was reviewing those thoughts it occured to me that no mater how the election would've turned out; whether Obama won or McCain won (which would have been such an apalling scene), either way there would have been protests against each others ideologies. If broken down, withering John won then he would be in the exact same positon as Obama and the democrats would be in the exact same postion as the Republicans (GOP) and they would be complaining about what McCains administration was doing, so really either way its a Fucking mess. Goodbye to bipartisanship.

Ralph Nader is pretty much the main leader of the Independant party and if i had to pick like a "hero" in politics it would be him. He is honestly an extremy well educated and great person. Time magazine once voted him Person of the Year, apparently a huge honor. The Independant party really gets cock-blocked in the game of politics, and Ralph is not even allowed to debate in the primary debates or any debates for a presidential election. Actually those debates are only open to Republicans and Democrats, so if your in some other party, well Im sorry but you just got screwed out of a chance to talk to Americas mass and get your message out. If they were allowed to the American people might hear something good. All the public hears is what rhetoric comes out of Republicans and Democrats, which alot of the time resembles one another just in different words. One might think there has to be something against this, blocking out other parties in debates like they dont even exist, like the Constitution or something, Right? I dont know at this point in time but my hat is off to those who try, namely my man Ralph Nader.



last note: I lean more towards the liberal ideas and as one might be able to tell i really dont like right-wings but I almost honesly perfer not to be involved in any political affiliation. It just doesnt seem worth It.



last last note: Maybey were all damned...

Ladies Staring As Other Ladies Stand

My time spent milling around at my high school Ive noticed something that i think every girl does. You can be siting in the commons area or wherever you are that there is a mass, mixed sex number of people and watch. Say at my table there is just me and 4 other girls, (not that im like gay, or a womanizer, or anything, i just know 2 of them and that's just where Ive sat since 9th grade; the other skank girls just managed to migrate to "my" table this past year) one girl can get up to go empty her tray, say one of the ones i know and one of the trailer trashy looking girls' eyes will follow the other girl, up and out of her seat and follow her back into her seat when she returns. I see this and i watch those trailer trashy eyes, watching the watcher. All girls will do this. They are simply sizing up the other same sex animal. Not that there all lesbians, its just a natural girl thing to look at another female and judge them, compare themselves to them like, "Oh man i am glad my ass isnt that big" or in like one of those really sassy girl tones " Oh my god, i cannot believe she would wear that out in public, hmphh what a tramp". ..

The First of Not So Many

I have things to write, but the paper with words on them is not here and to be quite honest I don't think im quite here either... Have you ever been bogged down? Has anybody ever been stuck? My ankles seem so far deep in tar right now I just hate waking up. School, at the moment, is really just a Fifty ton weight thrown on my back with "dictators", teachers, following me on my plight. They load us students down, down, down, with so many things. I am a senior so it goes a little something like this... Wake up at a godawful time of day, 6:30 in the morning, which is way to early for at least my own human body to be functioning at. Well someone says, well you should go to bed early. Ha, they apparently dont get it. My body, my mind is so tired from the previous days and those previous days before that, my body or mind never has time to catch back up. So unbalanced. But with this "Senior Quest" and teachers throwing other assignments at our brains it all just seems way too much. Give us a break. We dont even want to be here, the majority of us that is. Its pretty much like a prison. The students are forced to attend that prison, and be broken down physically and mentally by that prison. Then after that prison some kids attend the next stage of their hell...their homelife. Now, would i call my homelife a hell? No, I wouldnt go as far to call it a hell just a complex homelife filled with drunken fatherly OCD rampages of condescending and irrelevant arguments. Not so bad right? I guess it's better than going home to the same thing but also getting the hell beat out of you by an abusive parent. I manage. I manage all of this, i get my work done, most of it, and pass just pushing towards that graduation day, Freedom Day, Finally...